At 5/07/09~~~
After a movie with my lou po at queens bay mall..
We decided to go back home~~~
It was a good day~~
because...
I can watch my favorite movie with my Lou po "Transformer 2 Revenge of the Fallen"~~
I can shopping with my beloved~~~
I can eat together with my beloved~~~
but... it was not....
it was a tragedy at the end...
At 1830 evening~~
After we finished our lovely movie and shopping~~
We decided to go back home as soon as possible before the sky get dark~
this.... is the time tragedy was occurred~~~
It was a busy period where everybody also want to get back to home~~~
When the bus arrived~~
everybody were rush to the bus like an ant crowded for their food~~~
Me and my Lou po ether~~
Unfortunately....
while im took care of her~~~
I also forget to took care something.... my belongings~~~
Luckily~~
we get into the bus before it was crowded~~
I was started to worried my belongings~~
and i checked my belongings of my left pocket and right pocket~~
My wallet still here~~ BUT?!
where was my hand phone???~~~N81
SHITT!!!
is it drop at the bus station?? i go back to checked... NO it was not!!!
is it out inside the bag?? searching and searching... NO it was not!!!
AS a conclusion....
it was stolen ... T.T
by a bull shit goddamn pickpocket~~~
All the things become silent in my mind~~
my mind was blank~~
My lovely N81 gone forever...and forever~~
and i can do nothing to get it back~~~
It was a phone that contained countless of valuable memory of me~~
especially for my Lou po~~
i can say that where our relationship started from the phone~~
it was so so so SAD~~~
our photo~ our sms~ our calls~ our.....
We were both felt so sad on this tragedy~~
at here~~ i want make a shout out~~~
we cursed that pickpocket~~~
we pray for N81 so that it will get a nice owner who love it like me~~~
Peace Out for N81~~~
and...
REady for our next...
5800XM silver/black^^
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
LovE Diary'09 ParT 4(3/3) (The Day WithOut U)
Cont.
At 01/05/09 to 18/05/09~~~ Days without you #17th to 27th day~~
At the month of April, there were total 16th days i lost contact with her~~
it just a half way~~
and the lonely journey haven't end~~
here We continue~~
At the beginning of the may...
it was a sad month~~~
what i do~
what i eat~
what i see~
what i read~
what i hear~
what i smell~
also..
no mood~
no taste~
no colour~
not clear~
no focus~
no perfume~
no feeling~
That absolutely out of control of myself~
that not ME... somebody soul have occupied my body~~
im thinking am i lucky that i meet her or im the unlucky one to meet her~~
i had a crush on a girl that have boy friend ?!
what a jokes~~~
It sounds like i m going to grabbed others gf from others~~
oh my god~~~ please tell me what should i do~~
In these days~~
i keep sent forward message to her~~
some of the message also hints that i am missing her very much~~
i knowing that she would not reply me but why the hell i still text her ?!
why~~ why~~ why~~~
well~~ no matter how~~
i still in my daily routine~~~
ask if any body saw me smile at that period~~
anybody ????
no....no body~~~
everytime when i took up the phone~~
look at the calendar~~~
look at the date~~
counting how many days i din contact her ler~~~
look at the inbox~~~
is there any message i dint read???
look at the time~~~
counting the time that tick tock-ing~~
look at the call log~~~
is there any missed call that i dint received~~
all these action just disappointing me only T.T
At one day before 15/05/2009~~~
it was a hot afternoon, and a moody + sleepy me~~
Suddenly, i was received a call!!
Oh my god, see who is calling~~ is her?!
why she can call me at this time???
i was so touched and happy ^^
til i forgot to angry her already~~
We was chatting for a while about 15 minute~~~
it was not satisfied for me for being abandoned for a long time~~
But she have to hang up cause some reason~~~
i wish at at that moment would freeze as i wish~~
til i satisfied~~
Again i was abandoned again~~
In the phone just now.... she said she was miss me alot~~~
when i was heard it~~ it just make me so touched~~
i just tried to lock my tears from my eyes~~
Til the Day of 15/05/09~~
When i was in a funeral of my relative~~
I suddenly received a sms that shock me from the sad funeral~~
She said she will be break up~~
I was stunned at that moment~~~
Am i supposed to happy???
Am i supposed to sad???
Am i supposed to advise her???
Am i supposed to encourage her???
What i should do??
Can God give me the hints???
I just tried to think rationally at that moment~~~
I ask her again and again~~
Are You sure to do that???
The answer was YES~~
and i respected to her decision that her made~
At the time of 0030~~~
All the things have come to the end~~
All the things have come to the conclusion~~
All the things have to start over again~~
Should I felt happy for that??
The answer was NOT~~
WHY???
I know she was sad~~I know she was cried~~I know she was pain~~
The worst things have been happened to her~~
and my heart feeling pain too~~
At the day of 20/05/09~~
Who supposed to leave~~ have to be leave~~
Who supposed to be stay~~ have to be stay~~
All the things have to start over again~~
All the things need to be settle it down~~
Even a wound need some time to heal~~~
what I can do is accompany her all the time~~
lent my ears to her~~~
tried to put some candy in her heart~~~
tried to heal her wound ASAP~~
that all i can only do~~~
And one things was....
I stay back to her in the end~~~
Is there any extent of our r/ship??
What i supposed to do???
Is this the right time to do so????
Is my appearance cause this thing happen to her?????
Al type of doubt have been pop up in my mind~~~
BUT... 1 important things was she was single and available AGAIN~~
At 01/05/09 to 18/05/09~~~ Days without you #17th to 27th day~~
At the month of April, there were total 16th days i lost contact with her~~
it just a half way~~
and the lonely journey haven't end~~
here We continue~~
At the beginning of the may...
it was a sad month~~~
what i do~
what i eat~
what i see~
what i read~
what i hear~
what i smell~
also..
no mood~
no taste~
no colour~
not clear~
no focus~
no perfume~
no feeling~
That absolutely out of control of myself~
that not ME... somebody soul have occupied my body~~
im thinking am i lucky that i meet her or im the unlucky one to meet her~~
i had a crush on a girl that have boy friend ?!
what a jokes~~~
It sounds like i m going to grabbed others gf from others~~
oh my god~~~ please tell me what should i do~~
In these days~~
i keep sent forward message to her~~
some of the message also hints that i am missing her very much~~
i knowing that she would not reply me but why the hell i still text her ?!
why~~ why~~ why~~~
well~~ no matter how~~
i still in my daily routine~~~
ask if any body saw me smile at that period~~
anybody ????
no....no body~~~
everytime when i took up the phone~~
look at the calendar~~~
look at the date~~
counting how many days i din contact her ler~~~
look at the inbox~~~
is there any message i dint read???
look at the time~~~
counting the time that tick tock-ing~~
look at the call log~~~
is there any missed call that i dint received~~
all these action just disappointing me only T.T
At one day before 15/05/2009~~~
it was a hot afternoon, and a moody + sleepy me~~
Suddenly, i was received a call!!
Oh my god, see who is calling~~ is her?!
why she can call me at this time???
i was so touched and happy ^^
til i forgot to angry her already~~
We was chatting for a while about 15 minute~~~
it was not satisfied for me for being abandoned for a long time~~
But she have to hang up cause some reason~~~
i wish at at that moment would freeze as i wish~~
til i satisfied~~
Again i was abandoned again~~
In the phone just now.... she said she was miss me alot~~~
when i was heard it~~ it just make me so touched~~
i just tried to lock my tears from my eyes~~
Til the Day of 15/05/09~~
When i was in a funeral of my relative~~
I suddenly received a sms that shock me from the sad funeral~~
She said she will be break up~~
I was stunned at that moment~~~
Am i supposed to happy???
Am i supposed to sad???
Am i supposed to advise her???
Am i supposed to encourage her???
What i should do??
Can God give me the hints???
I just tried to think rationally at that moment~~~
I ask her again and again~~
Are You sure to do that???
The answer was YES~~
and i respected to her decision that her made~
At the time of 0030~~~
All the things have come to the end~~
All the things have come to the conclusion~~
All the things have to start over again~~
Should I felt happy for that??
The answer was NOT~~
WHY???
I know she was sad~~I know she was cried~~I know she was pain~~
The worst things have been happened to her~~
and my heart feeling pain too~~
At the day of 20/05/09~~
Who supposed to leave~~ have to be leave~~
Who supposed to be stay~~ have to be stay~~
All the things have to start over again~~
All the things need to be settle it down~~
Even a wound need some time to heal~~~
what I can do is accompany her all the time~~
lent my ears to her~~~
tried to put some candy in her heart~~~
tried to heal her wound ASAP~~
that all i can only do~~~
And one things was....
I stay back to her in the end~~~
Is there any extent of our r/ship??
What i supposed to do???
Is this the right time to do so????
Is my appearance cause this thing happen to her?????
Al type of doubt have been pop up in my mind~~~
BUT... 1 important things was she was single and available AGAIN~~
~PART 4 ENDED~
Thursday, July 9, 2009
LovE Diary'09 ParT 4(2/3) (The Day WithOut U)
Cont...
After the last call~~~~
finally~~
the phone has been shut down at that time~~
at that moment i just hope the time will be rewind to yesterday night~~
rewind to he sweetest time we ever have~~~
rewind to the time we together~~~
‘只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着~~要怎么停了~~~’
i also hope the time also can fast forward~~
forward to the future time so that i can chat with her again~~
listen to her voice every night before i sleep~~~
but....now...
gone...all gone...
at this time i dont know need to wait how long~~~
1 days??
1 weeks???
1 month????
or ...
i just hope time can flow faster and faster...
At 17/04/09 to 30/04/09~~~
at the 17/04/09 time of 0745~~~
i woke up in the morning~~
the 1st thing i do was send a sms to her so give a warm good morning to her~~~
did i forgotten something???
or i just use to it???
i was put down my hand phone and forgot bout what i want to do~~~
well~~ as a saying goes : life still on~~
i gotta continue my life here~~~
and i look on the mirror~~
told myself must be stay strong~~~
nothing gonna change without her ok^^
and go to my college~~
Unfortunately.....
this though was proven wrong after a day without her~~~
cause i realize that i almost think of her whole day even though i study~~
i cant even focus on the class~~
my mind just can blank and thinking of her~~
my eye just can lost focus~~~
i just like day dreamer~~~
it just like a automatic switch~~
i...just... cant...stop.... thinking of her....
i just cant stop thinking when the time i with her when the 2nd time i met her~~~
it just like playing a slide show~~~
image by image~~~~
day by day~~~~
little by little~~~
my missing messages in my brain to her has become a mountain~~~~
it just keep my mood down the deep....... deep......... bottom~~~
no one can help me out of the hole~~~
except her~~~
i can say that bout 80% of the whole day im in moody mode~~~~
where is the 20%??
it is when im at college hanging out with my colleague or hanging out with my frens~~~
it just like take a panadol~~~
just relieve a while~~~
when i was prepare to get into my dream land~~
when it was silent and dark...
this is the time where i start to thinking of her~~~
what i can do is~~~
view back the photo i took with her~~
listen back the voice i record when we was in the conversation~~~~
send a forward message to her to relieve my pain~~~
my pain.....in my heart....
it is.....bleeding T.T
sometimes~~~
she will send me a forward message~~~too...
but i suppose to happy~~~
this time i feel angry~~
i also duno why~~~
maybe...
i hate her dint reply my forward messages..
i hate her dint call me....
i hate her dint bother me for a period of time...
but....sometimes people said hate and love just between a line~~~
is it i already fall in love deeply with her??
i think so~~~
it is proven in this period already~~~
Yes, i do~~~
to be Cont.~~
After the last call~~~~
finally~~
the phone has been shut down at that time~~
at that moment i just hope the time will be rewind to yesterday night~~
rewind to he sweetest time we ever have~~~
rewind to the time we together~~~
‘只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着~~要怎么停了~~~’
i also hope the time also can fast forward~~
forward to the future time so that i can chat with her again~~
listen to her voice every night before i sleep~~~
but....now...
gone...all gone...
at this time i dont know need to wait how long~~~
1 days??
1 weeks???
1 month????
or ...
i just hope time can flow faster and faster...
At 17/04/09 to 30/04/09~~~
at the 17/04/09 time of 0745~~~
i woke up in the morning~~
the 1st thing i do was send a sms to her so give a warm good morning to her~~~
did i forgotten something???
or i just use to it???
i was put down my hand phone and forgot bout what i want to do~~~
well~~ as a saying goes : life still on~~
i gotta continue my life here~~~
and i look on the mirror~~
told myself must be stay strong~~~
nothing gonna change without her ok^^
and go to my college~~
Unfortunately.....
this though was proven wrong after a day without her~~~
cause i realize that i almost think of her whole day even though i study~~
i cant even focus on the class~~
my mind just can blank and thinking of her~~
my eye just can lost focus~~~
i just like day dreamer~~~
it just like a automatic switch~~
i...just... cant...stop.... thinking of her....
i just cant stop thinking when the time i with her when the 2nd time i met her~~~
it just like playing a slide show~~~
image by image~~~~
day by day~~~~little by little~~~
my missing messages in my brain to her has become a mountain~~~~
it just keep my mood down the deep....... deep......... bottom~~~
no one can help me out of the hole~~~
except her~~~
i can say that bout 80% of the whole day im in moody mode~~~~
where is the 20%??
it is when im at college hanging out with my colleague or hanging out with my frens~~~
it just like take a panadol~~~
just relieve a while~~~
when i was prepare to get into my dream land~~
when it was silent and dark...
this is the time where i start to thinking of her~~~
what i can do is~~~
view back the photo i took with her~~
listen back the voice i record when we was in the conversation~~~~
send a forward message to her to relieve my pain~~~
my pain.....in my heart....
it is.....bleeding T.T
sometimes~~~
she will send me a forward message~~~too...
but i suppose to happy~~~
this time i feel angry~~
i also duno why~~~
maybe...
i hate her dint reply my forward messages..
i hate her dint call me....
i hate her dint bother me for a period of time...
but....sometimes people said hate and love just between a line~~~
is it i already fall in love deeply with her??
i think so~~~
it is proven in this period already~~~
Yes, i do~~~
to be Cont.~~
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
09/07/09 The Day of us....
Today~~ 09/07/09~~~
is the most important day for us two~~
me, Jeffy Ng and her, Erlyss Chee~~~
It is because today is our 4th anniversary of our r/ship....
it is the 4th month of our r/ship.....
We been go through all the things together for 4 month~~~
It is a valuable and wonderful journey we been through~~~
Yes... we should celebrate~~
but...we are a long distance r/ship~~LD
well i m working over here~~~
and i just cant take my time here to celebrate with here~~~
that just make me feel sad...
but 2day...
we just quarrel about some matter~~~
that is the problem of LD~~~~
it just make me feel frustrated and useless~~
i just even cant protect my girlfriend at all~~~
im useless~~~~
i do nothing~~~~
and nothing i can do about it~~
it just make me feel very...very..very... sad~~~
but my love for you was never change~~~
my love for you gaining day by day...second by second~~~~
even infinity~~~~
HappY 4th Anniversary to my Lou po~~~
Here i got 1 song to sing~~~
"Theres only 1 thing~ 2 do~ 3 words~ 4 you~~ I LOVE YOU~~~"
PeaCe out~~~~
is the most important day for us two~~
me, Jeffy Ng and her, Erlyss Chee~~~
It is because today is our 4th anniversary of our r/ship....
it is the 4th month of our r/ship.....
We been go through all the things together for 4 month~~~
It is a valuable and wonderful journey we been through~~~
Yes... we should celebrate~~
but...we are a long distance r/ship~~LD
well i m working over here~~~
and i just cant take my time here to celebrate with here~~~
that just make me feel sad...
but 2day...
we just quarrel about some matter~~~
that is the problem of LD~~~~
it just make me feel frustrated and useless~~
i just even cant protect my girlfriend at all~~~
im useless~~~~
i do nothing~~~~
and nothing i can do about it~~
it just make me feel very...very..very... sad~~~
but my love for you was never change~~~
my love for you gaining day by day...second by second~~~~
even infinity~~~~
HappY 4th Anniversary to my Lou po~~~
Here i got 1 song to sing~~~
"Theres only 1 thing~ 2 do~ 3 words~ 4 you~~ I LOVE YOU~~~"
PeaCe out~~~~
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