After the last call~~~~
finally~~
the phone has been shut down at that time~~
at that moment i just hope the time will be rewind to yesterday night~~
rewind to he sweetest time we ever have~~~
rewind to the time we together~~~
‘只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着~~要怎么停了~~~’
i also hope the time also can fast forward~~
forward to the future time so that i can chat with her again~~
listen to her voice every night before i sleep~~~
but....now...
gone...all gone...
at this time i dont know need to wait how long~~~
1 days??
1 weeks???
1 month????
or ...
i just hope time can flow faster and faster...
At 17/04/09 to 30/04/09~~~
at the 17/04/09 time of 0745~~~
i woke up in the morning~~
the 1st thing i do was send a sms to her so give a warm good morning to her~~~
did i forgotten something???
or i just use to it???
i was put down my hand phone and forgot bout what i want to do~~~
well~~ as a saying goes : life still on~~
i gotta continue my life here~~~
and i look on the mirror~~
told myself must be stay strong~~~
nothing gonna change without her ok^^
and go to my college~~
Unfortunately.....
this though was proven wrong after a day without her~~~
cause i realize that i almost think of her whole day even though i study~~
i cant even focus on the class~~
my mind just can blank and thinking of her~~
my eye just can lost focus~~~
i just like day dreamer~~~
it just like a automatic switch~~
i...just... cant...stop.... thinking of her....
i just cant stop thinking when the time i with her when the 2nd time i met her~~~
it just like playing a slide show~~~
image by image~~~~
day by day~~~~little by little~~~
my missing messages in my brain to her has become a mountain~~~~
it just keep my mood down the deep....... deep......... bottom~~~
no one can help me out of the hole~~~
except her~~~
i can say that bout 80% of the whole day im in moody mode~~~~
where is the 20%??
it is when im at college hanging out with my colleague or hanging out with my frens~~~
it just like take a panadol~~~
just relieve a while~~~
when i was prepare to get into my dream land~~
when it was silent and dark...
this is the time where i start to thinking of her~~~
what i can do is~~~
view back the photo i took with her~~
listen back the voice i record when we was in the conversation~~~~
send a forward message to her to relieve my pain~~~
my pain.....in my heart....
it is.....bleeding T.T
sometimes~~~
she will send me a forward message~~~too...
but i suppose to happy~~~
this time i feel angry~~
i also duno why~~~
maybe...
i hate her dint reply my forward messages..
i hate her dint call me....
i hate her dint bother me for a period of time...
but....sometimes people said hate and love just between a line~~~
is it i already fall in love deeply with her??
i think so~~~
it is proven in this period already~~~
Yes, i do~~~
to be Cont.~~
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